Saturday, March 26, 2005
when your pain seeps through
it comes to me
i see your face so clearly
somehow you seem so far away though
i want to reach out and bring you back
but i don't know how
i can't seem to reach
the darkest places within
i want to be your sunshine
but i guess that's a job for HIM
know that i'm here though
waiting for you to need me
sometimes letting go
is the only way to stay
the pain may last a lifetime
but i'm here for you today
it's worth fighting for
i'm not going anywhere
if you'd only let me in
Posted at 10:16 pm by Charlie
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Saturday, February 05, 2005
we'll die another day
die another day
we'll cry all the way
all the way, all the way
down, down, down
please don't forget me
don't forget me
and all the memories
I left with you
please don't forget me
don't cry away the pain today
cry the pain away
save your tears for another day
another day, another day
find a different way
to fight the pain
just don't forget me
don't forget me
for I left today
left today, left today
I'm sorry but I had to go
had to go, had to go
It wasn't meant to be
you and me weren't meant to be
you'll find another one
another one, another one
you deserve more than me
more than what you see
what you find in me
we'll die another day
die another day
please don't cry my love
it had to be
please just forget me
Posted at 11:25 am by Charlie
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Monday, January 03, 2005
you're gone
and i'm trying hard
not to forget you
you mean
so much to me
so what am i doing
why am i brining myself
so close
to loosing you
it makes me sick
why am i like this
all i want is you
at least that's
what i know is right
please try and understand
you really
shouldn't have too
i really
shouldn't be like this
i'm so sorry
please be patient
with me
and help me
get through this
until i really believe
that all i want is you
Posted at 11:26 am by Charlie
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Sunday, December 12, 2004
I wish I was behind your eyes
seeing the things the way you do.
I wonder what you're looking for
when your eyes search my face.
Are you looking for love, acceptance,
or for someone who adores you?
I hope when your eyes pierce me
that you find all those things.
Perhaps you don't understand?
Should I use my lips to express them;
to bring to life my feelings within.
I do not know if there are words
that could express everything completly.
My lips, I do not think
could do justice to my feelings.
The words never come out how I want them to
and your ears do not hear them right.
My hands could not create
anything that could suffice either.
The silence and the stillness
express it the best, I think.
Our eyes meeting in silence,
and the stillness broken by a blink.
In those moments I hope you
understand all the feelings inside me.
I hope you understand
how I love and adore you.
My hands long to reach out and touch you,
I do not know what holds them back.
Perhaps they fear that
they will find you twisting into smoke.
Or that if they hold on to tightly
it will push you away.
When you are around you are
all my eyes can see.
I am not going anywhere.
You have no reason to fear not seeing me.
So look deeply into my eyes and
get lost in them, like I am lost in yours.
Posted at 12:40 pm by Charlie
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I dream of your lips touching mine.
My every waking moment is
interupted by visions of your face.
Too much time without you and
I can no longer function.
I thought I knew what love was
before I knew you, but I was wrong.
I have now found that love is,
knowing that if you were gone
I could not go on and
that if you stopped breathing
my heart would stop beating.
We complement eachother perfectly.
We have two seperate lives
yet our minds are synchronized.
There is a distance between us
but not even it can keep us apart.
At times it seems that the world is against us
but we struggle on together.
Posted at 12:34 pm by Charlie
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Monday, December 06, 2004
licking my lips
dry and cracking
looking,
but not seeing
what's in front of me
I am beyond
time and space
lost in a moment
seeing eternity
numberless threads
coming from all directions
crashing perfectly
creating harmony
endless possibilities
swirling in my head
each one like a
shining star
each one leading
somewhere else
Posted at 12:32 pm by Charlie
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Sunday, November 28, 2004
starkly contrasting
vividly piercing
bleeding in my head
choking down the voices
rising up again
pounding in the darkness
the taste of vomit
over and over again
falling through fields of nothing
stumbling on pain and suffering
shivering in the fire
burning with desire
locked in a nightmare
screaming silently
thrashing violently
i don't want to fall asleep
Posted at 12:29 pm by Charlie
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inside of me there's emptiness
inside of me there's pain
inside of me there's lonliness
feeling I don't want to feel again
hidden beneath the surface
are emotions I cannot explain
I don't know were they came from
I don't know how to make them go away
I don't know if I'll make it through another day
I try to keep them hidden
I try to cover them up with a smile
I try to keep you from seeing
all the pain inside of me
I know it will only hurt you
there's nothing you can do
you've done so much already
you've given me a reason to fight
you've shown me beauty and light
I'm happier with you than I've been in forever
I don't want to ruin this
I don't want this to end
if I have to hide it forever I will
I don't want you to ever feel
all the pain inside of me
Posted at 12:24 pm by Charlie
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Wednesday, November 24, 2004
a life just like a prison
locked in a unpenaterable tower
crying softly for a prince
maybe someday he'll come to the rescue
the days pass, the years pass
the walls have closed in
screaming for a hero to break them down
sitting in darkness alone
waiting and loosing hope
nostalgia sets in
maybe this is as good as it gets
passively giving up the fight
with no hope left there is a light
something is penetrating the night
could this be a chance to break free
hope slowly begins to grow
each day the light intensifies
it melts away the hardness
there is a feeling of happiness
it finally draws near enough
freedom is within reach
with one quick movement the walls are gone
an explosion within the mind
reaching the far corners off the universe
endless possiblities can now be reality
the prince has come, life is free
Posted at 12:19 pm by Charlie
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fallout
you're the one for me
I sleep with the light off
I dream in soft colors
you hugs are sweet
I spin in circles
I drink lemonade
you're the one I need
I sleep in complete darkness
I dream of your face
your hugs are comforting
I talk in circles
I drink ice water
you're the one I love
I sleep seeing nothing
I dream screaming softly
your hugs give me life
I spin into nothing
I choke it down
fallout
you're the one for me
Posted at 12:11 pm by Charlie
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